I'm weak

A man should be stronger than a woman
But somehow, im weak...
i dont know,
i just dont know,
i just feel, like i need to let go all of this,
it's torturing me :'

This Date 1 May 2019
She didnt tell me where is she now
she just met someone,
someone that maybe better than me :'D
I WOULD LOVE TO LET THIS GO BUT,
MY HEART DONT :'((
IT'S HURT LIKE FRICKIN HELL

I thought i am ready
I thought everything will be okay
I THOUGHT IT WILL BE MY HAPPY ENDING...
But right now,
i'm suffocating,
it's so hard to breathe,
if someone can end this pain,
please...

Release me from all this pain,
or maybe i could end this living thing ?
Hahaha, Nahh, im not that brave to take on my own life,
i just feeling it, not going to do it :')
just to tell,
how suffering i am,
it almost like im better be dead :')

¬ :'D

T I R E D

I just want someone understand me...
I just want someone to fully support me...
I want someone to compensate my ego...

I just want someone to pat me :'(
I just someone to hug me :'(

Maybe, i can't even understand other, so that nobody would try to understand me :'(
Maybe, those who's i support, not feeling supported enough, so no one fully support me :'(
Maybe, i don't care about anyone Ego, so they also don't care about my Ego and prioritize their own Ego :'(

Im sorry :'((
Im feeling down right now,
i have a lot of stupid thought :'((
Im tired...
Im sorry...