Just a scratch...

Yeah... i know i'm not perfect... and maybe i'm not a person that you've waited for so long...
i know i'm just a fatty shit... :'(
i know i'm not handsome... :'/
i know i'm not as good as him... :')
i don't know what to say...
Sorry for if sometimes i only make you sad... and sometimes i make you cry... or maybe make you feel angry...
i'm sorry...
i don't know why... maybe you're not feeling special with my existence... sorry if i can't make you feel special... this is all i can do... i know it's my fault... it's my fault to be selfish and want to make you mine... but i hope it's not wrong...
i'm sorry...
i already try... but, somehow it's so hard for me...
you can call me anything... weak... loser...
That's all i can do... i'm sorry...

Let me tell you this...
if you're not happy to be mine... just find another boy that can make you special...
find another boy that can make you happy...
not like me...
i'm just a trouble for you huh? sorry...
sorry...
it's not that i hate you... but... please... i can't hold on anymore...
i just want you to be happy... it's okay if u go out with someone else... if it's can make you happy...
i know i'm not worth for you... so... sorry...

i'm just a weak human...
with fragile heart...
and some ego...

yeah...
sorry...
sorry...

i just can't hold on anymore if this continue...
i want to love you with all my love... but i can't... cause i don't want to be hurt so bad in the end...
i'm not a type of person who love with 'half-hearted'... i can't love someone that way... i can't...
i want to love someone deeply... because it's so sweet :') but somehow i can't do it to you...

okay... you said you love me... but somehow word itself is not enough...
sorry if i'm saying this...
because i love you... and i want to love you fully...
sorry...

But, if you can't love me fully too...
i can't hold it out :')

#please... tell me if you love me...
#but, if you're not... please let me go....